Monday, December 29, 2003

rant factor low

an ebb in the rant factor hasnt given me much to get off my chest. there has been plenty to rant about, a nasty hatemail, m.'s unit getting shafted by that old uncle scrooge who goes by the name 'sam'... i do feel like ranting at god for being such a bastard. that earthquake has killed twice as many people than live in my home town. and its cold there at night... inshallah inshallah...mashallah mashallah

Monday, December 15, 2003

what a busy universe!

whew! a lot can happen in a very short span of time! they got 'uncle' saddam... i know just how zeyad felt, ashamed, depressed, happy wasnt one of my own emotions either. it is sad to see a belligerent tyrant become a rat in a hole, no matter how evil. i had the same thought, why didnt he shoot himself and save the poor iraqis the scenes of his dishevelled being? is revenge sweet? no... somehow revenge is at the same level that the 'evildoers' have gone to. dont get me wrong, i know what it feels to want revenge, especially when the dirty deeds are perpetrated on you or your loved ones directly. that evil nasty bastard that poisoned my cat...i wanted to kill him a thousand times over! i sometimes think about my local... how he ignored me and hurt me with his lies and dirty deeds. and now he cries to me, 'dont leave me'... and i think, what about all those days and nights and years you let slip by while i cried myself to sleep, couldnt eat or even think... of course my actions have nothing to do with a desire for revenge, but do you remain with someone out of pity? do you let saddam walk out of pity? we all have our prices to pay for our nastiness, and the prices are always painful. but it aint revenge. just think before you act or say hurtful things... cuz saying, 'i'm sorry' over and over again just dont cut it...

Saturday, December 13, 2003

its official(?)

he sez he is coming home!!! its official... but a date? a plan? nothing! the net is so unreliable... 30 minutes to load one page??? and the people using it for work cant get thier work accomplished! well. it looks like i wont be hearing from m. for a while at that rate, and so many people sick or on leave they are shorthanded bigtime. he shed his skin, undoubtedly 'leishmaniasis'... you spend day after day lying in a hot dusty foxhole getting eaten up by sand fleas... one in every 70 fleas carry this disease... he sez he is better now. thank the goats or gods or whatever... i dont know whether to laugh, cry, have a party or just get drunk out of my mind to try to get thru the remaining days. s. sez to me, if he gets out, go home! fuck a bunch of work contract bullshit. she is right. either way, its official, i am out of here! what kind of withdrawal i am in for i dont rightly know but i know he will understand and we will go thru it together. he has his own re-adjustment to go thru too. we will make it tho, just a couple of troopers ready to cover each others backs no matter what!

Monday, December 08, 2003

by the way...

well...its the day that will live in infamy to some, its PEARL HARBOR DAY!!! the day tojo did the mojo and finally forced the u.s. to 'do the right thing' and join the big one. does anybody under 50 know about this day? and the top yakuza/ politicians have pretty much forced the 'defense forces' to go to iraq. and what kind of weapons will they pack? anti-tank rpg's...duh...what tanks are they gonna be shootng at? and can they even shoot them without getting knocked on thier asses? they did a whole lot of face-painted posing on the news tonight, but not one shot. will somebody explain to me what anti-tank rpg's have to do with re-building iraq?! nothing!!!! they got a new toy and have to have an excuse for it, plain and simple... where were they made? wasnt it germany? ugh...

two things that suck

there are two things that suck. porn blogs and 'anime'. i mean... get a life people! if you have no life i can understand the morbid curiosity with a twenty something shaved pussy who likes to be smacked with a wooden spoon till her ass hurts , but is that a 'blog'??? give me a break! (bugs mating would be more exciting!) K. told me humans are so base love would never win over porn... i guess so... and anime???? oh man, let me tell you... anybody with a life in Jaypan is NOT into that crap. if you go to akihabara (geek central) you can see reams of horny lonely dudes who have no life or personality salivate over middle-aged looking ugly chicks dressed like gothic whores handing out pamphlets for the most recent 'anime' release... next time i am gonna take pictures... (kris, why do you go to akihabara??? cheap parts man...)

Sunday, December 07, 2003


"We also know there are known unknowns; that is to say we know there are some things we do not know. But there are also unknown unknowns -- the ones we don't know we don't know." "Reports that say something hasn't happened are interesting to me, because as we know, there are known unknowns; there things we know we know," "We also know there are known unknowns; that is to say we know there are some things we do not know. But there are also unknown unknowns -- the ones we don't know we don't know." -donald rumsfeld

Tuesday, December 02, 2003

on the mat

we are both down for the count. confined to quarters. he with an itchy rash that keeps getting worse and me with a scratchy throat that keeps getting worse. he was supposed to go to the hospital but undoubtedly they are too busy with shot up soldiers to have much room for stressed out ones. i mean, if he stormed the palace, shouldnt he have been one of the first men to come home to a hero's welcome and fanfare? why are they still there? why????!!!! will it be when the rumours say? when the local papers says? when? i want to know!!! i know time is short, we can technically qualify as short-timers by now, but marine girls guy is stuck in some kind of 'demobe psycho lab'... telling him dont do anything 'rash' like get married or take a nice vacation...duh.. isnt that exactly what he should be doing???!!!! m, i will chew through the bars on the windows if they lock you in some 'demobe lab' when you get back!