choose your poison

when youre feeling out of sorts and life sucks, what do many people do? seek a diversion. some of us drink, some of us zombie out on the idiot box, some do drugs, prescription and otherwise. some do productive things like excersize (obviously not one of my diversions, i cant even spell it!) or bake cookies. now there is a kind of diversion that has billions of us by the balls, geekdom... you sit in front of your computer for hours and days at a time. you ruin your life by meeting strangers (or former flames) and falling in love... i am addicted to this stupid machine! i have adjusted my internal clock to wake me up at 2:00a.m. to check for mail from baghdad, no matter how much of drunken stupor i was in when i passed out. (i am five hours ahead of iraq time). when there is no mail i feel ill, and then i cant sleep... i need him so bad it hurts to be alive. m. sez he wont believe in a god that makes innocent people suffer. why did god decide to make the road to enlightenment so treacherous? ya ya i know, things worthwhile are worth every second of suffering. well then that surely means m. and i are a match made in heaven cuz the suffer meter has been knocked off the scale! there is no diversion for lovesickness except the object of your love...