time

i have started a countdown calendar. its a thing you do, when you have something you are waiting for so bad, you have to count the time to keep from going insane. waiting time drags, it twists and turns and and does somersaults, but never goes straight. always yankin yer chain... hey! youre waiting arent you?! taunting... making a fool of you... the key is not to let it get the better of you. beat it at its own game. yeah you bet i'm waiting and loving every minute of it. ha! you have to love it, because you know when the wait is over, life begins. a new birth. the one you have waited for all your life whether you are 25 or 85. germany was the best vacation i have ever had, and i didnt even go there. words fail me... realtime communication for the first time since before he deployed. (except that very short very bad connection call in may) gosh...the autumnal equinox is next week. signpost of time passing. the sun moving one more phase in the year. we talked about so much. he keeps saying he is safe. i know he says it to ease my fears, but he likes the local people, spends most of his time with them... they like him, they are making him fat! shishkabob with fresh onions... he loves the weather! the heat doesnt bother him too much, not as much as some. the rebuilding he sees. he jokes... sucking general shit is rebuilding? hahaha... i could go on...love bonds are tied with tender words and teary goodbyes... its so hard to say goodbye, just say, "see you soon my love"... keep it cheery, not teary... thats hard, let me tell you. cry your eyes out later, as soon as you hang up...