bummed out

what am i supposed to say when he says, why are you so angry? everytime i am not the cheerful smiling wifey i get that. the news bummed me out, m's letter bummed me out. when is it okay to be bummed out? his friend is dying, he can be bummed out about that. hey! that bums me out too! the fool, he worked himself to the brink and has three little kids he will leave behind. why do people think work is so fucking important? it is like we are all under some kinda universal brainwashing to be consumers while our material desires are consuming us. like the snake eating his own tail. why cant everything just be free? i makea da good tomatoes, you makea da good computer, we makea da good music together! i know i am being a major simpleton.... i am just bummed out. some days are better than others, eh? well, a ray of golden sunshine did come into my life thru the cyber wire, a hot ticket lady... thanks honey! love hearing from you! love your honesty above all! lets make beautiful music for the worlds weary ears to hear! no boat till the weekend and a typhoon on the way. and unwanted overnite guests on the weekend to boot. chicken one day and feathers the next. hey! be cheerful kris, thats your job! see, i am smiling and laughing... choking back the tears...