obsessed

m never indicated he had a thing for me back then. i was obsessed with him though. but i keep my obsessions so well hidden he didnt know. and now that he has become the object of obsession again, it is my local i keep the obsession hidden from. say what? do you throw away a life of 15 years for a former obsession? (if he gets out of baghdad alive,that is. hey! amerikanos dying on a regular basis: see any major news site) oddjob sez: "who made the rules you could only have one partner?" but if the shoe was on the female foot, would i tolerate it? and could i really be wifey to 2 guys? somehow i doubt it. i am a damn good cook though... (when m got the one call out from baghdad, local and oddjob were literally beating thier chopsticks on the table for the next round of better than restaurant chinese;vegetarian for oddjob, that i was cooking. i ran outside with the phone but thier screams for more food was alarming the wildlife! long awaited phone call inturrupted by two men demanding to be fed!) is there such a thing as a partner who is on equal terms of "im crazy about you"...? why do guys come on so good and then peeter out? like a path in the woods, looks so inviting but the deeper you go into the forest you find the damn trail leads to nowhere. just peeters out...but the terminal optimist always thinks the grass could be greener. or the path will lead to shangri-la of the heart. oh well, meanwhile, pray and wait for an e-mail from baghdad...